I have been at my current employer for three months now. It is always a battle being the new girl. It is an even greater battle being the new girl in the position that I took on. Being the Executive Assistant to the State Director and the Office Manager for the entire state of Oregon is no small feat. Sometimes I wonder what I got myself into. My position requires me to wear many hats: IT specialist, secretary, ant killer, mover, bill payer, counselor. The list can go on. But, I have come to realize something this week. I had the courage to follow my heart, my intuition. And I don’t regret it for a second.
My organization is in the midst of building their leaders up, finding a foundation that we can grow upon. We are going through a series of leadership training led by a leadership guru. He holds 1×1 coaching with us and on one of my “sessions” we talked about how my personality is usually shy but with a deep conviction to my values. We talked a lot about my previous employer and how no matter how much I loved the job at the end something told me it would kill me if I stayed. I was lucky to go through the two years I was there because it taught me what my heart really wanted, what I truly wanted to become.
My previous employer helped me to realize that everything is about energy. Everything is about how you feel around those circumstances. The way you feel around those circumstances will tell you if you’re in the right place or not. That is the beauty of your instincts. While I didn’t have some kind of great epiphany this week, I did realize that I can’t be angry at what happened that led me to jump ship with my old employer because had it not been for them teaching me everything I had to learn to get through those two years I would not be making a difference today.
So, here is my encouragement for today. Never apologize, never feel bad, never feel guilty for trusting your instincts. Your brain can overanalyze literally everything. Your heart can be blind to the ones that you allow it to be blind to. But your gut, that funny feeling in the pit of your stomach, the still voice in your head, that feeling like all your spidey senses have come alive, that is what is real. No matter what situation you are in listen to that intuition. If it’s a relationship, disconnect with that person. If you are in the parking lot at night, turn around and have someone walk with you out. If you are in the midst of finding yourself, take the step your heart wants you to take no matter who is telling you it’s stupid. If it’s walking away from a past that you wanted but understood it wasn’t healthy, then my loves, run.
I leave you with this thought from Judith McNaught: There will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something the defies logic, upsets your plans, and may seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, ignore the complications. And just go for it.
Happy happy Friday. xoxo